Fall

SEASONS
I don't go outside very much.
But, here's the thing: in Portland, we don't really have seasons. Sure it's sunnier than usual in like, August. But that's pretty much it.
The picture at the top of this blog is from a fall day in Prague when I was, apparently, dramatically walking across a bunch of leaves. This is reminding me that I really miss fall.
And like I often do, I asked myself "what time of year is it?" - because here in Portland - and, I guess, in this "adult" life where time passes fast and seasons don't signal a change in behavior - I don't keep "what season it is" in my head. It's February, which means I missed fall - I guess because I was working. Fall just means rain in Portland, though. It doesn't mean leaves changing and falling and being crisp on the ground and raked into big piles. It means rain.
I could do more, to be fair - my friends don't do a lot of celebrating of seasons, and I  haven't really had it as a priority either - did I have a halloween costume this year? Oh yes, I made it in a day. And we didn't even have a pumpkin at our house.
This should be a thing I do. I know that celebrating seasons and holidays, and just celebrating in general, would make time seem more important, and possibly make it pass slower, which would be nice.

TODAY
Today I woke up after 11am, worked (and did a lil Twitter reading/procrastinating) until 6:30, and then went to Kinko's, a coffeeshop to sign a lease for our new house, and played a show.
The time I spent at home working was - on and off - pretty productive. I'm making videos daily for a social media management project, planning concerts/tours/convention trips and writing to a few regular deadlines.
Today I realized this: I am a freelance writer. I am doing this. I have an adult life. And sure, I slept in until 11am and I'm up at 1:23 updating my blog, but that just means I'm an adult who isn't particularly good at "work ethic" or "not procrastinating." Still a grown-up, though. That's cool.

(the dichotomy between "real world"/not real world and grown-up/not grown-up is false, but it still seems real.)